I Choose to find the positive in everyday. I choose to follow my heart and let it lead me to unknown territory. I am letting myself fall in love with ME. I am changing at such a drastic speed that I haven’t been able to keep up. I have spent the past month resting and recharging my own inner energy. Thinking a lot about what direction I’m heading in. I’ve been reading and planning. Journaling and getting back to being creative….
Stop talking about it .. Be about it!!!..
My 2018 motto… you can sit around all day and dream and wish for something to change… but it ain’t gonna!… want to know why? Because no one is putting in the actual work to change whatever shitty situation you got yourself into. We all know how to talk a good game. I know I do! Well I used to. I remember just thinking, “these are the cards I’ve been dealt and there is nothing I can do about it.” Boy was I wrong. For me it was just the matter of getting up and being productive. I felt stuck and depressed for so long and I was tired of it. I was tired of being sad and irritable. I wanted to get back to having fun, adventuring in nature, and feeling like a woman! SO one step at a time I did each thing! Started taking my kids to parks myself or with mom friends that I made. I went to those mommy play groups. I stopped waiting for others to come to me and started doing my own thing. I reached out to old friends. And that was just the start of my journey. Some of those mom friends became family! The friends I’ve reached out to, who I thought could care less about me, they reached right back. I never miss time with them. I keep up the phone calls to other longtime friends and they reciprocate. I used to feel so alone.. because I isolated myself while I was throwing myself a pity party struggling with life’s changes. That is all it was. A constant struggle to get a handle on life. Once I realized that I need to stop worrying and start doing. That I can make my own damn decisions and make them without other peoples opinions affecting me. It was so refreshing..
And here I am now… in a funk BUT a good funk…